I’m done trying to control my life. Not that I was really trying in the first place. Maybe, what I’m really trying to say is that I’m done being afraid. In general I’ve always let life happen to me. I go with the flow and I adapt to what’s happening. I’ve learned more about that since working for over a year at my job.
Sometimes, I would forget that mentality. I would try and imagine what I wanted and when it didn’t happen I just shut down. So I’m not doing that anymore. I’m submitting to the fact that I have no idea where my life is going or what is going to happen and I’m fine with that.
I have goals for my life. Things I want to do. Places I want to be. People I want to do and see those things with. I have aspirations and dreams and I don’t know how they are going to happen, but if anything, what’s happened in my life recently has taught me to take things as they come. I’m not going to get lost in thinking that this or that isn’t fair and thinking that there will never be a way out. That my dreams might not happen. That I’m always going to loose the people that I love.
Letting go of the reigns of life is so that I can enjoy it. I’m done with worry. I’m done with fear. I know who I love and who loves me and I’m secure in that. I’m secure I the fact that no matter what somehow and someway things will work out. That we’ll make it through.
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-Till next time!
The Book Raven 
I really like how you recognize the concepts of love and fear ………I think our emotions, decisions, goals all come from love and fear.🙂
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Thank you! It’s been hard to try and figure out the direction I truly want to take or really it was easy and I was afraid for the consequences, but I know that I’m happier this way and letting life just be for a while in the time in between is important to me.
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I definitely feel like I can relate to this sometimes. Especially the part about letting things in life happen to me. But I’m glad you recognize that you sometimes have to make decisions for yourself that make you happy.
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Thanks! I think I was stressing myself out too much because of certain things happening and I told myself that I’ve made my decision now what happens isn’t much up to me anymore so I might as well let things be as they will and I feel so much calmer now.
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I can imagine so. Sometimes whenever you make a decision you feel so much better afterwards, like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.
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It was hard because it was one of those things that hurts you and others no matter what you choose and that was no ones fault, but in the end I realized there was only one decision that would turn out well and with me being the most happy. It’s just going to be a long while to see the outcome for sure.
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I really like how you put these thoughts into words. Reading this post, I realized that it’s how I feel, but I was never able to explain it to others. Whenever I would say that I don’t have a 5 year plan, they would scold me for not having goals, and not going for what I want. That’s not true, but like you, I just enjoy “letting go”. I feel like it makes me happier. However, the people around me tend to stigmatize this way of living quite a bit.
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Kudos to you! I definitely don’t have a 5 year plan or even a 1 year plan. I mostly live day by day. I only have a few things that I want to happen, but as for when they do.. that really isn’t up to me.
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This is put together very well, and it’s definitely something I can relate to
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Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed!
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