After way too much time, I have returned to set my goals for July 2022. I remembered that I had the most success in my goals when I’d write them down here and remind myself of them every day. Consistent progress that would lead to me actually finishing the projects I would set out for myself.
For reading I am going to restart Beyond the Surface. This time it’ll only be up on my blog and the main focus would be for me to read a book every month featuring a character dealing with their mental health.
For July, I will be reading The Art of Starving by Sam J. Miller.
I have chosen this book for this month because I have been desiring to read it for so long and I no longer want to make any excuses for not reading it.
I will also be reviewing the books that I’ve read this year that I have put off reviewing. I’ve been so behind in my reading and reviews that I feel super bad for accumulating such a large back log. It’s time to slowly chip away at it and not accumulate any more books till I have a lot of what I already have read.
In writing, I really want to finish an actual book. I’ve also put that off time and time and time again. It needs to be done. I really don’t care about a specific word count daily this time around, but I need to put something towards my book till it gets done.
The other daily thing is I need to start to exercise and I also don’t care if it starts at 10 minutes a day, but I need to move my body. I need to lose some weight and I miss fitting into a lot of my old clothes. Most of all I want to do some awesome cosplays and I need to loose a bit of weight and get in shape for that. The added bonus of being and feeling healthier will be amazing too.
Starting July 6th, I have the next two classes in my pharmacy technician course. I’m starting to get into more specific pharmacy tech classes and I am excited. I need to organize my classes a bit better so that I balance it to where I get everything done.
Another super exciting thing is that I got myself a ps5 a few months ago. I also took very big advantages of the PlayStation sales that have gone on. I’ve purchased a ton of really awesome games and I’ve been loving many of them. However, I haven’t really been doing a lot of completing any of these games. So my goal for this month is to work towards completing Dark Souls.
So far I have played 25 hours of dark souls. I have made it 8% of the way through the achievements. I am currently trying to make my way through blight town. My goal this month is not to complete dark souls, but at the very least to make any amount of progress on it daily provided I’ve completed all my other tasks for the day.
Also Man of Medan is coming to PlayStation plus in July and I am absolutely going to get my boyfriends to play through the entire game with me. I haven’t played a game with him in a good while and I’m excited to experience something new with him.
Also the main thing I want to do is organize my time better. I want to have nights available for myself to relax watch Stranger Things (my sole tv show to complete goal for the month) or to play video games without worrying that I have all these other things to do and complete for the day.
I also will have a decent amount of days this month set aside for family and friends. These days are the days that are the most peaceful to me.
All in all, there’s a lot I want to do in July. I will make sure I keep the main things I want to complete done and as long as I do, this month will be a success. If I do achieve all my goals this month I’ll let myself buy the game Stray to play next month because I’ve been so excited since it was announced.
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One of the things I’ve put to the side a lot lately has been exercise. Last time I weighed myself I weighed more then I ever have and as someone who likes being active and feeling my body move it’s been a point that causes an amount of sadness for me.
I have quite a few reasons that I want to get back to exercising, but the one that gives me the most passionate motivation is cosplay. I told myself that next year for Halloween I want to buy myself a really nice Harley Quinn cosplay.
I’m obsessed with this kill the justice league version of Harley cosplay. I’m in love with it. The jacket especially is my favorite part and I’ll definitely wear it weather or not I am wearing the whole cosplay. It’s stunning and I know I’ll feel so badass in it.
For me this is a start of exploring something I’ve always loved which is dressing up as my favorite characters. When I was small it was the Disney princesses. Now it’s Genshin Impact characters and Marvel and DC characters. For me being physically in shape and feeling stronger and more flexible will make me feel all the more like those characters I admire.
So starting tonight I’ll be doing regular exercise and getting into shape. I thought I’d start with a two week Chole Ting program with added breaks if need be for long work days and going from there.
I’m really excited about this and I can’t wait to share with all of you my progress and any cosplays I do in the future!
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Sometimes it’s much easier to start new habits at the beginning of the month. It gives you a chance to set your intentions and to not make excuses and just go for what you want. This month I want to write. I want to read everyday. I want to wake up early and stay up so I can commit to everything I want to get done.
One of the biggest fuels to my anxiety has been trying over and over to recommit to my blog and not sticking to my commitment. Well, this month that all changes. I am ready.
This month my very first goal is to write a blog post everyday. I’ve been able to blog more and more frequently and I have plenty of posts ideas to get me started. There are also three different DC Comic Releases this month that I will be reading and reviewing that I am very excited about Whistle, Unearthed, and Beast Boy Loves Raven.
The other thing I’m actually going to do and stop stressing about is exercise. I’m going to watch some shuffle dance videos since at the moment I am very much focusing on treating my wrists and that’ll be a stress free way of allowing my body to heal and still keeping active. As well as the 100 squats / 100 sit-ups daily challenge.
Another thing I wanted to do is revisit writing in my write this story book and make that my routine for before I start my novel writing for the day: 10 to 20 minutes of writing a short story and then going into writing / researching my novel. I want to spend at least 30 minutes a day focused on writing my ‘bee girl’ novel.
My focus towards learning will be Duolingo and Khan Academy. I’ve been really wanting to take a chemistry class since I never took one in high school and so I’ll be taking one on khan academy doing a little lesson everyday.
When it comes to reading I know at the very minimum I am going to finish reading Spinning Silver no matter what.
I have been so close to done for a long while now. If I do things right I may even finish it today and write my review for tomorrow. However, that remains to be seen.
As far as games, I am committed to Fortnite right now. I’ve played pretty much daily and I’ve unlocked all the skins from season 7 (only thing left is literally 15 alien artifacts). Season 8 is very close now and I will be happy to do my routine to unlock all the skins all over again.
At the end of the month my goal is to feel proud. To feel like yes I did and enjoyed so much this month. That I enjoyed reading and I enjoyed writing and I spent quality time with my family and enjoyed times with my friends too and with my lovely boyfriend. With my hours at work now more manageable to give my wrists a chance to heal I want to heal some of the mental issues that have been plaguing me as well as feel more then my fair share of joy this month. I’ve spent too long in the opposite feeling.
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This month has already started well. I started on doing my Instagram posts again for my books. I’m excited about this month of reading! I have many books that I’m going to get to this month.
The two books I’ll be finishing reading for sure are:
The Lamb who Slaughtered the Lion
Saints and Misfits
Both of these I have limited time to read so I’ll definitely be getting to them first.
Writing. I want to start writing again at least 15 minutes a day. So that’s what I will start doing.
Exercise. My right wrist is completely shot right now. So I’m going to start doing some standing exercise videos at least until my wrist feels better. So tonight after I finish work I’m going to start my new routine.
Instagram. I want to do an insta post everyday this month. Doing a #Marchreads challenge.
To feel good. I want to enjoy everyday and so far today has felt good and I’ll love that to continue throughout March.
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Day 2: I accidentally forgot to do this yesterday. But, I’m back at it today and I’m happy to enter into another yoga challenge. This video was a reminder of the very basics. Which is good because one of the biggest parts of yoga for me is the mental part. Always being present in the moment and how I think while practicing is important. My mind wandered a lot today, but that’s ok, by the end I was fully in the moment and practicing this way more and more will help with my often wandering mind.
Day 3: Today was short and peaceful. I didn’t put my knees down for the vinyasas because I’m used to them already. In general today I felt so good in my body. I tried to do my first full push-up in my life today and I succeeded. It’s such a small thing, but I’ve been wanting to be able to do so for so long! It’s so nice that the practice that got me the strength for it has been yoga. Even if something doesn’t happen right away it doesn’t mean never. One step at a time and you will achieve amazing things!
Day 4: The short practices feel extra short after being used to the 30 min classes. However, it does help me get into a state of mindfulness and peace and I think that’s the most important thing. Today I progressed my forward fold where I could touch my big toe if I lift it up with my back straight. My sister made fun of me because she said it was cheating, but I’m proud of my progress nonetheless.
Day 5: Today was a little more intense. Plank with my forearms down always has my whole body shaking. I enjoy a good day of core work. I’m happy to continue on a practice that helps my strength and my flexibility.
Day 6: Another gentle practice. There was more vinyasas, but the time went by so fast that it felt like a good warm up instead of the usual shake fest. I almost didn’t make it to practice today. It’s a good reminder not to get lost in playing too much Town of Salem. I’m way too addicted to that game.
Day 7: I just want to say how much I love doing this! There wasn’t any standing today, but I was practicing touching my toes on my own and I can finally do it with my back straight! After less than two months of practicing yoga and one of the biggest things for me has been achieved. I’ve been made fun of for my inability to touch my toes. Finally being able to do so without any pain is such a great feeling. I’m so proud!
Day 8: The past few days have been productive in a I’ve grown up and have to do adult things kind of way. The boringish taking care of setting up personal accounts and talking with insurance people and setting up a lot of stuff. Doing yoga has become something I do 100% for myself to stay grounded gain perspective and has allowed me to see the good in the seemingly boring activities that I’ve actually been pretty proud of myself for doing. There is something great about getting yourself put together in all ways.
Day 9: Today while practicing a lot of things in my life felt clearer than normal. I realized that I felt ok within myself and how things are right now. Even though I know my life is changing and will continue to change I’m happy and ok in this transition period of the unknown. I’m proud of just being myself and my refusal to give up on life. I’m healthy. Actually healthy, mind, body, and soul. I remained patient with myself and I’m finally standing and seeing how far I’ve come. I don’t have depression anymore and I’ve come to be able to combat any triggers to my anxiety like a pro. I feel good. Really good. I brought myself out of the darkest my mind had ever been. I truly am grateful I showed up for myself. It even shows with how I care for myself everyday and am not afraid to buy something I like when I see it. I am my own warrior and I am unbelievably proud. Workout of the day: https://youtu.be/ymNC71KWY1M
October 13th, 2019
Day 10: Sometimes after a really good day things don’t go exactly as planned. Today was one such day, but doing this instead of giving in to apathy and realizing that one bad day isn’t going to ruin the rest of them. Practicing yoga is a reminder that I have a choice in every moment to look at the bright side and not let a negative period dictate how I see things. I can overcome it. Each and every day.
Day 11: Lots of twists today! Which felt amazing on my back. My spine feels so good after today’s practice. I’m in a very happy mood today and I’m so grateful for it! I attribute a lot of the peace I find in my life recently to my decision to practice yoga. It’s always the time of day my mind is clearest. I’m loving the practice!
Day 12: she did a variation on a yoga pose today that I hadn’t done before so I messed it up a little, but I got it eventually. I did my practice today with a charcoal face mask on so it felt like a double dose of self care. Today was quite the productive day! We shall see what tomorrow brings.
Day 13: I didn’t practice yesterday and I almost didn’t practice today. But, every time I decide to even when I don’t really feel like it I remember why I enjoy it so much. It’s peaceful for me. It helps me to feel ok with where I’m at as a person. It’s part of how I care for myself.
Day 14: today was a mediation day which felt so good after working hard all day today. This yoga practice is slowly changing my life. I’m truly grateful for it.
October 19th, 2019
Day 15: Today was a good ab workout. I don’t know if it’s just that I was tired today or what, but after I finished I had a tear on my face and I don’t know why? I wasn’t sad or anything, but a tear came anyway.
October 20th, 2019
Day 16: I practiced in the morning today. In the morning my body is a little more stiff, but still it’s not as bad as it used to be. Overall a nice smooth practice today.
Day 17: In general, this time around it’s been a general yoga flow with bit too many new things thrown in. What’s been good about that is that this practice has been more about a good mental state than anything else. Being healthy in the mind shapes the way you see everything around you. The peace I find practicing yoga is incredible. It feels so good.
Day 18: I love feeling the increase to my arm strength. I have so much more control over slowly lowering myself down then I had before. The most minute of progress is still progress and it should be celebrated!
Day 19: Today felt pretty tough for some reason. I also felt a weird construction in my throat that felt like stuck energy that wanted to be released. I know that by tomorrow or a few days from now that should feel a lot better. Other then that I really worked my core today. Maybe I’ll do a morning practice tomorrow.
Day 20: Today also made me tear up. I don’t know what it is about practicing recently, I end up shedding a few tears. I’m not sad about much of anything really right now, but the practice brings it out anyway.
Day 21: During this meditation I cried a bit. Because it was about love. Imagining people you love, people you see from day today, people you dislike, your family members, pets, etc.. you tell all these people that you wish them well, that you want them to be happy and healthy and you do this too while imagining yourself. It’s a very powerful meditation. At one point my ear started ringing… and it isn’t the first time that’s happened while I meditated (even if it doesn’t mean anything). All around a powerful experience.
Day 22: I am so happy! I accomplished both sides of the side plank! I was shaking like crazy, but I held it and I couldn’t before. I’m kinda glad that I took two days off. I didn’t really want to, but I did need a break.
Day 24: So it’s been over a week since I continued this challenge. Partially, that’s because I was super excited to put on some make-up for Halloween. Partially, it’s because I knew I was going to six flags on the 3rd for Halloween. But mostly, it’s because I had the first depressive episode I have had in a long time. It started at the end of November 1st and lasted until today. I spent that time mostly watching Scream Queens and distracting myself with playing Town of Salem and reading a book for a book tour review. All this to say.. I’m doing better today. I didn’t really have an intention of starting back everything till tomorrow, but I knew that if I wanted to feel better I needed to get back into things as soon as possible. Some personal stuff happened and it freaked me out, but I know we’ll push through and in a few months things will settle down again. This is probably the fastest I’ve ever pulled myself out of a depressive spiral and I’m super proud of myself for it. I’m dedicated to my well being and mental health. So if I have to keep pulling myself out of spirals a thousand times until they are no more I will. Because they are lessening and that is something I am truly grateful for. On another note, today’s practice was intense. A strength workout for my first time back over a week wasn’t as fun as you’d think. But, I still did it and that’s worth a whole lot.
Day 25: I feel a thousand times better today. This workout felt amazing. I realized I could do a deeper happy baby. My body felt open. I felt the negative energy from worry and depression I talked about yesterday melt away. I feel so much better.
Day 26: My arms felt pretty tired today. Today’s practice was a little more difficult. However, there was a lot of downtime and I did take some extra breaks so it was definitely doable. I’m feeling much better overall today and I’m excited for what tomorrow will bring!
Day 28: I want to go back to this meditation anytime in my life where I’m feeling down or out of sorts. It is a beautiful mediation full of truths we don’t always want to believe for ourselves. I loved it. It brought me a lot of peace.
Day 29: Today’s practice felt so so good. My back feels wonderful. My mind feels peaceful. I loved every second of it. I’ve noticed recently that my hips have opened up a lot and that I can go deeper into a lot of the hip-opening stretches. I also noticed that as excited as I am for every little piece of progress I am also quite happy with where I’m at currently. This includes in my general life as well. A lot of the time I’m concerned with when something will happen for me in my life, but not so much anymore. I’m pretty happy with how things are right now and that’s saying a lot.
Day 30: Another practice that simply felt amazing! It’s the end of another 30 days of yoga and I might not have done it all consecutively, but I did do it to the best of my ability. I feel my body being stronger, lighter, and more at peace than ever. It’s one of the best gifts I could have ever given myself.
All in all: I’m grateful to have committed myself to this experience. This time was more tumultuous then it has been previously, but that’s ok. It happens. But, in the end it helped me learn a few things about myself and continue to grow as a person.
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I joined the Fightmaster 30 day yoga challenge in order to increase my flexibility and strength for yoga and this is how it went:
August 31st, 2019
I started this late and on a whim, but I’m glad I did. This workout was more of a stretch, relax, and feel good in your body then anything physically straining. It showcased how yoga is about being mindful and present in the moment and I really enjoyed the act of feeling good just being in my own skin.
This yoga introduced downward dog which has always been one of the more difficult positions for me because of the strength it requires. But, it was introduced in a light way so it actually felt nice to ease into it. I love these videos because of how peaceful they are. It’s more about the peace of mind and relaxation then it is about the positions. Which is what I believe yoga is and that’s why I’m excited to continue on over the next 28 days!
I am starting to really get used to things. I like that this time happy baby was added, even though it always has been a weird pose for me. It just feels peaceful to participate in this and so I’ll be happy to see how the rest of the month goes! Got a late yoga session with this one.
Today plank was added and I shook a lot for the first time. Other then that downward dog seems to be getting slightly easier and I am finding that I simply love the peace of the practice. Yoga I had done before had almost no room for me as my body isn’t really all that flexible. Although, I know with more practice it can get there. Either way I’m actually liking doing a bit of yoga each day.
Today I really felt the stretch in my back. My spine was cracking and twisting and it needed this today. Hopefully by the end of the month my forward bend flexibility increases. I’ve always desired flexibility and I think it’s time I dedicate myself more to it so I can thank myself later.
A week down! This time I did a nice morning workout and did an ab workout afterwards. This video was a little more strength based and doing the plank pose makes my body shake a bit, but developing strength and flexibility is important so It’s all good. Also, it’s my first week completed which is something to celebrate!
Today was the start of the 20 minute long sessions and it didn’t really feel any longer. I was in downward dog and plank a lot more, but I feel like I’m building up more arm strength. This was an afternoon session and I find that my back is feeling really good and stretched out afterwards and I feel very relaxed. I’ve very much enjoyed the practice so far!
Today my hormones were pretty imbalanced and I didn’t feel like doing anything. However, finally at night I decided to do my yoga practice and it’s the peace it gives my mind that makes me happy to practice everyday. Honestly, my monthlies tend to depress me and a lot of the time I give in because I get in pain and I’m tired, but the yoga reminds me I can push through.
A morning session today! I loved the stretch in my back I got today. My body needed this yoga session. All the moves are becoming more fluid and easier and plank isn’t making me shake as bad anymore. I love that this is building strength as well as flexibility. But, most of all this is helping me with patience and peace of mind. When you can have peace in your mind I think you can handle and do anything!
Day 11: Late session! I went to see It: Chapter 2 today so I couldn’t do yoga this morning. I noticed that I could stretch a bit deeper into one of the stretches today. Slowly, I’m getting better and that fills me with pride!
Today was a bit more difficult. There was more downward dog to plank to cobra positions. As well as new positions that increased a bit of the intensity. However, I found I could get through it not too badly so I’m pretty proud of myself!
I was glad that today was for 15 minutes. My mind has been all over the place and this practice is very grounding for me. It helps me feel peace. Even as it has gotten increasingly more difficult. Though I find I ease into it well enough. I’m happy to have committed to this these past two weeks.
Day 15: there was this new stretch today that I’ve never done before that felt incredible. I also noticed I had a slight increase in my flexibility. As well as downward dog and plank becoming ever more easier and comfortable to me. My back always feels great after a practice and I feel that it’s helping my back to be a little more aligned. Also today I was noticeably able to deepen my forward fold.. which is probably my weakest flexibility point. I’m super proud of that because it means that as I continue my practice I will also continue to get better!
Today, I know I was on the precipice of not doing my practice. However, I’ve been so good at doing it so I’m glad I put my foot down and did it anyway. Today she added reverse table and it made my arms burn a bit, but for the most part it felt like a good burn. I’m getting very used to the regular poses and am now pretty comfortable with the majority of the practice.
Day 18: Today was the first time I found myself break a sweat. The new pose today was pretty intense and I couldn’t fully straighten my leg, but I did my best! But, all in all, it was a lovely practice as always.
Today was all about twists! My back feels so wonderful right now. I’m hoping that since I can’t go to a chiropractor anytime soon that the yoga helps with my back alignment. Another peaceful practice today!
Today’s practice was a meditation and I’ve been pretty tired today so I’m glad it was something gentle. It’s the end of the 3rd week and I’m proud to have kept this up! I don’t always stick to stuff like this, but I’m glad to have stuck this one through!
A 30 min practice today! I almost forgot to do it, but I’m glad I remembered and did it before it got too late. Today the practice simply felt good. My back popped a lot, but that is normal. As always, a peaceful practice.
Today’s workout was really exciting for me! I noticed significant improvement in all the poses. Especially my forward fold which I could only bend with my back straight to wear I could touch my knees and now I am a little bit above my ankles. I’m so proud of myself! Improving my flexibility has been a major goal of mine for the majority of my life that I never committed to. Now doing this practice everyday and it’s only been 3 weeks and I’ve seen such major improvement! It just goes to show you can do anything you set your mind to. Also, I’m arm strength has also improved! I’m doing better in every aspect!
Today was not as breezy as normal. My arms were tired from work and then doing this was tougher than usual. I’m hoping that tomorrow my arms feel a bit better. I think it’s just that today has been a strange one all around and I’ve been tired all day. Hopefully, after some rest tonight I can feel a bit better tomorrow.
I got my flu shot today. So during this practice my arm was a bit sore. She did some fast vinyasas and I was not exactly happy with it. But, my back always feels so good after a practice it’s always worth it. She introduced pigeon pose today. It was a bit intense, but not too bad. All in all a great practice!
The start of today’s practice I was a little out of whack. But, as the practice continued I entered the flow of it again. Some of the poses today were preparing for headstand so I’m excited! Especially because I was doing those poses well and that meant I might be ready to try next time!
Today was a stretch day. Something I was grateful for. Somehow though, this was a little more painful to me. I think it’s mostly because it is my weakest part. But I know with practice my flexibility will increase.
Day 28: I am so proud of myself today. I had a sucky day today. Honestly, it was probably the suckiest day I’ve had in awhile, but I calmed myself, I looked at why I was feeling the way I was and I turned it around. Doing this yoga today was so wonderful! I successfully did crow pose. Which is basically holding your whole body weight up with your hands. Plus, I realized I love fightmaster so much because she really talks about how everything is progressing at the level you are ready for and that the pose isn’t what’s important. It gives me a feeling of pride to know I really am doing my best at the level I’m at, in yoga and in life!
Today I noticed I could go even deeper into my forward fold. I didn’t understand one of the moves, but I tried it again afterwards and realized that I was putting my hands in the opposite direction and finally got it. Also inversión prep today! It was nice to walk myself up the wall and feel like I’d eventually be able to do a full handstand!
Day 30: I Learned today that I may not be completely ready for a headstand. But, what is most important is that I dedicated myself for 30 days and I made it! I also made some incredible progress! Eventually I will make it to the headstand, but the majority of this practice was about mentally dedicating oneself and progressing at your own pace. I’m so glad I decided to do this! It’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I’m so grateful to fightmaster for creating these videos. She is so peaceful and kind! I can’t wait to further my yoga practice and continue progressing to see how my body adapts and continues to do amazing things!