Happy Mother’s Day!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there! I hope you are having a wonderful and joyous day.

It’s rare for me to get a picture with my mom so this is a special treat from her birthday in February. She is a strong woman in mind and in spirit. I see a lot of that willfulness in myself being raised by her. I love when she laughs and complains about something in a childlike voice. Or when she picks on me when I go to hug her till I laugh.

She always makes sure that me and my sister are taken care of and I appreciate that about her very much. She has a beautiful soul. I love her very much.

I hope everyone is enjoying Mother’s Day in whatever way you all enjoy it within your families. Weather with it’s with your actual mother or just an important woman in your life that you know deserves to be celebrated.

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Y’all West: Y’all Stay Home: Saturday Webinars

This is the first ever time I’ve gotten the chance to attend Y’all west. I’m honestly pretty happy it’s online this time. I’ve never had the chance to attend dispute begging my mom every single year and for the first time this book nerd is getting to participate! This post is going to be all about Saturdays webinars. Things I loved. What I participated in. Any fun surprises that I got to experience. This is the all access post I’ve wished to read for ages.

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My Experience:

I woke up way before my alarm went off. I was just so excited! I’m so happy to be a part of this today. It’s just incredible. I’ve always wanted to and ahhhh I’m just so happy!

9 am: I read YA @ Home

To start I’m super excited to check out The Bridge! Hearing Bill’s story was something special. If I read any book from this panel I want it to be this one. It sounds so beautiful. I love how he talked about it. His personal struggle with suicidal ideation. God I loved how he decided to create something beautiful out of something so hard. I can’t wait to read it one day!

I love Jennifer! I’m just finishing reading the fourth book of her Deep Blue series and I love it. I’m so excited to read Poisoned! I’ll always read anything she writes!

Leah is a sweetheart. I loved hearing about You Should See Me in a Crown. I loved that she was just winging it and was growing up along with her character. It’s super cool. Every authors journey is different. Her story was so fun to hear about!

I didn’t realize that Jennifer was rejected for so long. It’s amazing that she went from that to being such an inspiration to me and so many others. It’s so wonderful to hear.

10 am: Opening Ceremony + Teanote AM Keynote

A fun little start to the festival. A cute little happy time. I loved it. I loved the cute little outfits. I haven’t read Little Women, but it was so fun to hear them discuss it all. Jo & Laurie sounds like such an adorable story. I’d love to check it out someday. The sisterly love in the panel was amazing. I enjoyed them talking about writing together. Such a cute panel.

11 am: Creativity in the Time of Corona

A fun time. This cast was really fun to watch. It was all about being kind to yourself and taking it day by day. Things definitely have changed. That it’s enough to take care of yourself and it’s such a pure and loving thought. All of them are such beautiful souls. It was really freeing to hear them talk. I loved it. That living and enjoying life is just as important as the work that your passionate about. Pretty much a do what you want and what’s best for you type of advice. It’s such a lovely thing.

On a side note hearing about how they write for video games was fascinating! I adored that aspect. Such an interesting and fun thing!

12 am: Modern Magic World-building

God I love fantasy. I love listening to all these fantasy authors talk about fantasy. It’s just the best feeling. I love what Adalyn Grace said about always chasing magic. I’ve always done that. God I love this so much. Essentially writing fantasy is such fun and that’s what makes it so fun to read. It’s pure escapism and what it reflects on the world after is a bonus. Everyone’s processes for writing fantasy was really fun to hear about.

As a side note every word out of Frances Hardinge’s mouth is a gem. She’s such a fun person to hear talk. I love her mind and the way she expresses herself it’s so delightfully wonderful.

This awesome answer came during this that I’m glad I saved cause otherwise it would’ve disappeared forever:

1 pm: Middle Grade Truth or Dare

Fun and cute panel. I wasn’t going to join in, but it’s been a gem of a panel. The banter between Ally Condie and Brendan Reichs was just so fun. I was laughing the whole time. The sarcasm was awesome and I got a lot of book recommendations for things I’ve never heard of that sound amazing.

2 pm: Truth Talking in Tough Times

This was a really interesting panel. Super informative. Very fun. Just a bunch of badass women talking badass things. Amazing! The toughest parts of life can inspire such hope and amazing ability to overcome. I loved watching this. Also how friendship can be a powerful tool for amazing things. As well as how powerful love can be in times of struggle. I especially want to read Lobizona. It sounds absolutely incredible.

Also the amount of empowerment and belief in the youth of our generation is beautiful. I love every one of these authors. This talk was amazing.

3 pm: Facing the Enemy: Hope, War, and Revolution

I love the female energy on this panel. All the books sound amazing. Feels like a chill podcast, but just with these amazing authors just talking about stuff. It’s so fun. I loved there ideas on hope. That was my favorite part of the panel. No matter what there is always hope and everything can just get a little bit better and a little bit better.

4 pm: This American Experience

Bill is back!!!! Yes! This panel is going to be amazing.

I love this panel it’s a very interesting and unique group of authors with all incredible books that I can’t wait to check out. I’ve been so immersed in the conversation, It’s been so powerful to me. Every person on this panel is amazing. All the books sound absolutely incredible and they all effect change and stand for creating a better world. It’s so empowering and hopeful. I love it.

Also having a white women whose very aware of being white among many marginalized authors in different ways was interesting. The conversation was a very unique one and I enjoyed it very much.

Edit: I do feel the need to address the fact that despite enjoying the chat and the authors dealing gracefully with a moderator that clearly should not have been the moderator. I’m linking the tweet to what was said and what the issues were. https://twitter.com/nekuthebooklock/status/1254227203971309568?s=21 this does not negate the fact that the discussions each author had about their book in spite of her was amazing to listen to.

5 pm: PM Keynote with Brandon Sanderson

Some straight advice on writing. Although I personally don’t entirely agree with it. It’s not really how I believe. It was interesting to hear, but it’s not exactly how I personally see dreams and what one is capable of. Or that it was framed in a way that resonated with me personally. I’m an optimist. I mean I get the ideas he’s discussing, but in reality I think it’s more that it’s forgetting the fact that we all start somewhere. That it isn’t an instant rise to everything we want, but it’s certainly possible. Even probable.

Here’s the thing although it’s not framed in the way I would put it, it’s basically the formula for releasing resistance (rather the ideas that would make you give up and make it harder to get published). So I have taken a bit of value from his story. I’ve seen things differently. But, weirdly it’s not so different from what I see and believe. Just in a very round about way.

His second point though is super solid advice. Being human means your interested in many things and that writing doesn’t have to be this innate thing that you live and breath and nothing else matters. It’s important to balance out your life and figure out what you want and how you work.

Also making things manageable in pieces is really important. Small goals are better then just having that big picture in your mind. It’s about the journey not just the end goal. Which is just the truth of big projects.

Favorite thing he said though is that writing books is like telepathy. Cause thinking about it it’s so true.

What you can do today is a wonderful mentality to have.

Side note macaw was adorable. He can use the force and it’s amazing!

6 pm: YALL Stay Home Smackdown

Just the opening was the best. So funny. I love whiplash. God this was the best. This ending has been glorious and light and funny and the best ever. I love everyone on the panel. It’s amazing. I love y’all west. It’s been wonderful.

Look at all these beauties.

Also highlight from Author Cribes:

God this was so funny. I loved it.

Then the pet roast with all the wonderful pets:

This cat is 90 in human years. Such an amazing one.

Then there was Masterpiece Emoji. Which was also so much fun to watch!

Then of course the ending dance party:

I can’t say how much fun I had today or how much this event and being able to finally participate has felt for me. It’s been absolutely incredible. I’m filled with so much love for this community. It’s been such a blissful day. Being an author is everything I want and just to finally be a part of this as a reader… it’s incredible.

I’m so excited for tomorrow!

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30 Days of Drawing Challenge

One of the things in my life I have always wished I was good at was being able to draw. I grew up being known as someone who was bad at it.. hopeless even, but after encouragement from some special people in my life I gave it a shot. A bit later I decided to take on this 30 day challenge. I gotta say I’m proud of how things turned out!

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February 20th, 2020

Day 1: Something you couldn’t live without 

February 21st, 2020 

Day 2: Favorite TV Show 

February 22nd, 2020

Day 3: something yellow 

February 23rd, 2020 

Day 4: Favorite book character 

February 24th, 2020

Day 5: Favorite Movie (I don’t have one so I picked one I think is really great) (also chose a horror cause that what I feel like drawing) 

February 25th, 2020 

Day 6: Something I dislike (I love waffles what can I say?)

February 26th, 2020

Day 7: Favorite Animated Character (don’t have a favorite so I’m picking one from my childhood.. baby me adored scooby doo)

February 27th, 2020 

Day 8: Something you miss. 

February 28th, 2020

Day 9: A band logo

I also drew noodle from the Gorillaz as a request: 

February 29th, 2020

Day 10: Favorite thing when you were little (God I was obsessed with dragons as a kid)

March 1st, 2020

Day 11: Something purple 

March 7th, 2020 

Day 12: Flag of the country your from 

March 8th, 2020: 

Day 13: Favorite movie Character (don’t have one so I’m drawing just one I like a lot) 

March 9th, 2020 

Day 14: Favorite Fairytale (picked my childhood favorite Cinderella) 

March 10th, 2020

Day 15: Favorite Book: The Giver by Louis Lowry

March 11th, 2020

Day 16: city skyline (Los Angeles) 

March 12th, 2020

Day 17: Something Orange 

March 14th, 2020

Day 18: your favorite quote (a quote I really like): 

March 22nd, 2020

Day 19: Favorite TV character: (gunna draw Harley Quinn since I’ve been watching The Harley Quinn Show a bunch recently)

March 23rd, 2020

Day 20: Favorite candy (all the candy!!!!!!)

 March 24th, 2020 

Day 21: A Logo 

March 25th, 2020

Day 22: something green (messed up a bit on this one, but I drew the first green guy I could think of Mr. Grinch)

March 26th, 2020

Day 23: Favorite Animal (tiger was my favorite animal from childhood)

March 27th, 2020

Day 24: A celebrity you admire ( I picked robin Williams obviously, he’s the best) probably the best realistic human I’ve drawn even though it’s not quite the best, but I’m improving and that’s what matters)

March 28th, 2020

Day 25: Favorite Place in your home (the inside of the shower from memory, I love my long showers)

April 2nd, 2020

Day 26: Something inspired by your favorite song (I don’t have a favorite..so I put my songs on random and Save a little love by Don Diablo popped up and it made me think of a little robot love so that’s what I drew) 

April 5th, 2020

Day 27: Favorite Food (BBQ sauce is King!!!)

April 7th, 2020

Day 28: Something Pink (the pink panther) 

April 10th, 2020

Day 29: Something in your room (not a very good version of it but I have this fairy statue that is much prettier in person then in the drawing, definitely going to try this one again when my drawings are better) 

April 12th, 2020

Day 30: whatever you want (weird bunny thing I thought was cool) (didn’t mean to but it is Easter so it’s appropriate I guess)

At the end of this challenge I am surprised at how fast I improved. There are certainly pieces I drew that I love more then others, but I’m just really proud that I got to this point at all. Childhood me is so happy at the moment. She’d be incredibly happy with how far I’ve come.

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I Am Returning

I have spent the last two weeks just having a lot of fun. I haven’t been blogging at all because I’ve been wanting to soak up all that January was for me. I’ve been happy. Happier then I have been a long time.

I’ve gone out with friends and played games into the night. I’ve laughed more then I have in what feels like forever. I’m experiencing so much more from life and it feels like everything is changing in my life for the better. So for a while I wanted to put aside responsibility that was outside my work and just have fun.

Blogging is wonderful and you all mean the world to me. It has been a saving grace from when I was suffering. I am not suffering anymore. I’m happy and I feel free. I’ve been milking that feeling for all it’s worth.

I am coming back to blogging because it is something I’m passionate about. Sharing all that I love and all that I care about. Nerding out about my favorite tv shows and movies, and getting excited about new books. Sometimes a good break filled with good things is what you need to remind you of why you love doing what you do in the first place.

I love writing. I love being myself and knowing that the right readers will come to find and enjoy what I wrote. I love blogging and sharing my thoughts and feelings about things and having conversations with fellow bloggers and book lovers about the fandoms we love.

It saved me from getting too far deep into depression at one point. Helped me to let go of pain. Helped me to see the kind of person I am and who I am becoming. I appreciate this community like I do no other.

I’m happy to be coming back. I feel fantastic about coming back in such a positive way. My January was amazing. I know this year is going to be one of the best I’ve ever had.

So I’m ready. I’m ready to see what amazing things I can create and do in the rest of 2020. I know it’s going to be a blast.

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January 2020 Goals

I have very few goals for this month and all are pretty straightforward, but the biggest and the main one is to have as much fun as possible. Whatever I’m doing, I’m just going to have fun. I’ve learned how to do this at work and everywhere I go and my happiness has improved so much because of it.

My other goals are

1. To save at least $20 towards buying a fold out piano because I want to learn to play piano

2. To write 10,000 words towards a writing project.

3. To learn some sort of dance choreography/ tutting

That’s it. Everything else is just to have fun. I don’t know what it’s going to look like. I don’t really mind what form it takes. I just want to start off my 2020 having fun.

I’m so excited for the new year! It’s going to be fantastic. I’m smiling now as I write this. I have this feeling in my bones that this year is going to be just wonderful. I can’t wait!

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I Welcome 2020!

I am so excited for the new year! I can’t really describe it. I’m so joyful in where I’m at that I’m just happy and excited knowing that the best that the world has to offer will come in the new year. I felt that way at work yesterday. I was suddenly this blissful happy person and I was excited. It felt like I’d taken a pill or something, but I hadn’t. I just felt really good.

I know 2020 is going to be an incredible year, because I feel so good right now. That and that it will be my dominate wish for the new year and every year after to find and experience as much joy as possible in each and every moment.

There is no real goal that I have set for 2020. I don’t really care for resolutions. Especially because they always seem to drop off pretty quickly. Plus, what you want for yourself is continually changing as you grow and change. So I don’t like to have a set thing that must happen in the new year.

However, I do want to set some sort of arbitrary goal each month. To learn something new or to do something fun that I hadn’t yet tried. Also, to write. To set some obtainable writing goals and to have fun writing.

With writing sometimes I feel I get weird about it, because I expect too much of myself when it comes to writing. Yet, when I take some time to sit down and write the words flow. It’s always there and easy to tap into. It’s breaking through that initial wall that I’ve got to work on. So I’ll probably make some sort of goal around that.

Either way, I’ll be making a January goals post tomorrow that will be a little more detailed as far as what I want to do in that month. I’m just so excited! So excited to live life. To follow my joy. Ever since I first decided to do so it’s gotten easier and easier and it feels incredible!

I wish everyone the best possible year ahead you can have. I wish you all the greatest happiness you can muster in the new year. I wish everyone to feel as good as possible in the new year.

In this moment I feel such joy, love, and warmth in my heart. I’m so excited to dance, play, and have fun in the new year. It’s going to be the best yet!

Welcome to 2020! Cheers to a year to remember! A year of transformation. A year where we live the life we’ve always wanted to live!

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Books of Christmas Past

Last year, I did not receive any books for Christmas. Typically this boat talks about just that, but last year was a tough Christmas for me, but all that happened then has turned into a blessing for me.

See I was in no position to even really feel enjoyment with books or much of anything in general. The contrast to how I feel now in this moment is incredible. I have changed so much this year and I achieved the ultimate goal that I’ve had for the entirety of my life. Which is to no longer have depression or anxiety way on me. Especially the last three months, I’ve felt free of any sort of Depression or Anxiety.

I’m at a point where I’m happy all the time. I find enjoyment everywhere and life is wonderful all the time for me. After my birthday, I set out to write the best things that happened each day and I was so surprised and delighted to find these past 8 days have been absolutely incredible! I look back on this week and I think that I’d want to fill my life with as many wonderful and unique moments every single day into the future. It’s been incredible.

Mainly, what has changed is my beliefs about life. Which sounds bigger then it really is. I’ve just discovered that I can and should be responsible for my own happiness and that I’m good at it. I’m good at keeping myself happy. I’m good at finding things to think about that bring me joy. I’m good at allowing myself the things that create greater joy in my life. It’s an incredible thing.

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Today Was My Birthday! 🎈

Today I turned 21! Why I feel weird about it I’m not exactly sure. Maybe, I just being technically considered an official adult when I have the humor and sarcasm of a 14 year old boy. Or the fact that being 21 means I can buy alcohol and I could care less about that.

I don’t know. On one hand I’m in the amazing place in my life. I can feel so deeply that I’m about to start seeing some amazing things happen in my life and yet another part of me just wants to be a kid. Not that being an adult means that you have to discard all childish things. I’m never going to give up the lightness of joy I feel when I connect to the childish things of life.

Maybe it’s just my impression of being 21 and what being an adult means. In reality, I can make it whatever I want. Which is what I am going to do. So I’m going to forget about all the things about being 21 I don’t really care about and define it for myself.

As a 21 year old I’m going to have the most fun I’ve ever had in my life.

This last year being 20 I spent a majority well, all of that time cleaning up my mental health. I literally don’t have depression or anxiety anymore. It’s unreal. So, I’m proud as heck of 20 year old me. I got myself through the darkest most scared parts of my mind and gently coaxed it into being happy pretty much all of the time. Which is honestly, the best present I’ve ever given myself ever. I didn’t kick depressions ass. I soothed depressions heart. I soothed it out of existence and that’s the most incredible thing I’ve ever done ever.

So that means 21 year old me gets to enjoy herself. She gets to live out one of the happiest years of life so far (I intend to continue the increased happy years). She gets to enjoy waking up being excited about the day. She gets to know that everything is always working out for her. She gets to feel good about herself. She gets to experiment with makeup and expressing herself because she finds it fun. She gets to have so much fun.

I am so excited for this next year in my life. I have evolved so much and I feel so much trust in myself and in the universe and I have this feeling, this inner knowing, that this next year is going to be filled with so much more to be joyous about then I can imagine! Every moment I am embodying more and more to be the woman that I desire to be. So whatever happens this year I’m ready.

I had fun today. I may have had to work, but I had a wonderful breakfast and an awesome vanilla latte and my mom actually surprised me with a gift of nail polish and an eyeshadow as I’ve been interested in playing with makeup recently and I always wear nail polish. I know I’m probably not going to wear it everyday. I just want to have fun with it and I feel that’s worth exploring.

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My Christmas Playlist!

I love music and dancing. I love listening to good music almost more then anything else. I listen to so much music and so much variety of music that most turn up a brow when they know I’m that small percentage of people who max out the Spotify limit and makes a ginormous playlist instead of liking songs, because it doesn’t let me like them anymore because I’ve liked way too many.

This year I shared with all of you my Halloween playlist and since then that playlist has grown as my playlists always do, but that just means I have new music to share for next year!

However, this post is about my Christmas playlist! I have some classics, some new songs, but all the joyful songs of the season! I made sure that my Christmas playlist was as positive as possible. Music that makes me feel alive. Music that makes me dance and sing and feel joy. I love that having played this at my work that my coworkers and I have had some good laughs dancing along to the music and that it’s been such a good time.

This Christmas is going to be one of my favorites. I can feel that deep in my heart. It’s started off with a bang and I’m excited for all that the season will bring.

On to the music!!

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The Book Raven: 25 Days of Blogmas!!!

I am so excited to announce that I am doing 25 days of blogmas this December!!!

Usually for Christmas I do three posts for Christmas my books of Christmas past, present, and future. This time, I’m making Christmas a whole month extravaganza and I’m so excited about it!

I don’t yet have ideas for all the posts that I’m going to post, but for the ones I do I’m super excited about. Particularly my December Friday the 13th post! 😉

Anyway, this is going to be a wonderful December! I don’t know what all is coming this month or all that I’m going to write about, but I know it’s going to be fun and that is all that matters!

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